Jamie

Yesterday evening I looked about for any hint of Jamie for the longest time (when I was supposed to be working, mind you). Why? I don't know. It's just so weird to me that a person can simply disappear--especially a person one had been so close to in the past. I looked at name combinations, maiden name, married name; places, hobbies, and there was nothing. The one mention of her existence that I found was on a web page from 2003, which was even before our relationship. But where since then? She has not fallen completely from my heart, and yet apparently has fallen from the face of the earth. To those who are so very gone, even the simplest of greetings--Hi, how are you--are swallowed in the same deaf and mute absence. Why must our lives be so very final?